Wow so its all go at the moment. I'm just going to a mind dump here for my own future reference. Feel free to read and comment (comments are always good).
1. The shredder
This is up and running like a dream. I can't believe it is. Like most projects that are worth doing this one really stretched me. I have learned a lot about my own practice through this one, I will write and reflect more later, but the main thing is this project had that classic fight or flight moment. You know the one, you reach a point were it looks like whatever you are doing will never work and you wish you had a steady 9 to 5 job and bitterly regret ever calling yourself an artist. But I persevered and with the right help and support it is up.
I have to do 2 x 1 hr talks this week one about the shredder and one about Datarama. I am trying to finish these off right now but I have plasterers/decorators round reaching the parts of my corridor a normal mortal cant reach. That wouldn't be so bad but they have local radio blasting really bad music..
3. Thinking about art.
I suppose this relates to the fight or flight moment again. Although most of my work probably fits into a conceptual category I still draw. I draw because it is an instant shortcut to good thinking for me. When drawing your not just thinking about balancing lines etc but the nature of what it is you are drawing, its relation to things you are not drawing and why you are doing it in the first place. I suppose for this reason I like some comic/graphic novel artists. These are people who draw compulsively, its like breathing to them. So it stands to reason that the good ones have something interesting to say.
Where am I going with this? well there is a journal I follow by Brandon Graham. In this post here he says something that was a lightbulb moment for me, "I was thinking, one of the things that can drag you down as an artist is thinking that it should get easy eventually. You think I`d know this but I always suprize myself at how it is always hard work." I have been very guilty of this thinking myself. I have become attached to the idea that I will get good at what I do.
So it might sound a bit far out but I think I am going to let go of this idea. The thought of not trying to be 'good' is a bit mind boggling and I suppose I should add the caveat that it does not mean that I will let the quality control slip but rather the idea that if I get good at what I do then it will get easier. Its a lot like being on a car journey with someone who is constantly asking "are we there yet?" After a wile it gets a bit irritating.